was just reading yh's blog... haha, really think if anything, the spirit in RJ is really great. maybe tt's why in its rubbishy campus, its still glorious. the pple rock... :)

anyway, today... fencing comp. firstly, i was kinda dying, was so sick. sniffing, sneezing, choking, coughing and to top tt up, a splitting headache. really think i made a huge mistake to go down so early w nick today, the morning wasn't of much use, and i just felt quite sick.

so i skipped lunch, eating chocolate - so smart. just my luck, i was in the largest pool. everyone in the other pools have to fence 5 others, i had to fence 6. brilliant. whatever... i was in zp's pool, thank goodness, or i'd be so bored and have no one to calm me down... ;) haha... well, first 3 matches, i was fine, won all 3 5-2... then i got quite tired, and i was breatheless, due to my sickness, and i lost 4-5 for all 3 matches. well, i was kinda upset at tt point in time cuz the matches were so close and i could have won them if i had done something differently, but its useless to say tt now i guess. so after tt, we got our rankings, was ranked 15th, not bad la, was in the top half.

then i had to fence in direct elimination round, was more than 2 mins late for my bout, and shit, i got a red card, one pt penality. wth. ok, so i started, was in such a daze and quite pissed abt the pt penality, was down 1-5. gee, it all went so so fast till it was 3-7. well, so i calmed down, decided i can't rush to my doom, and i got it to 6-8 i think. then, i made the same mistake goodness knows how many times, and went down 11-14. so it was match point, 3 of them in fact. somehow, someway, i managed to get it to 14-14, was so proud of myself. then came the last pt... think i was too brave, taking risks so many times, twice i took a risk, and was lucky to escape unscathed... the third time... he won. damn... well, it was really close, and the guy was really gracious abt it... :) even gave me a nod of acknowledgement 30mins later...

ah well... the coach was presiding tt match. haha, he had lots to say abt tt match. i was making the same mistake a few too many times, excat same one. and he wasn't amused. he said, i would've won long ago if i didn't do all tt crap. well, i guess i'll take something away from tt.

think i've gotten a little stronger mentally, at least i dun break down when i'm down by some margin like i used to. kept all my loses close, and didn't give away my leads. guess, tt's what i've done rite.

thank u everyone for yr great support... :) edward - drinks, helping me round even though yr leg was injured... amand - drinks, cheering, consoling, advice... nick - support, advice, consoling, fun... haha... and zp - support, cheering, consoling, support! thanks man... :) thanks also to yanyeong (tan and poh), steff, joanne, mingchuan (or i'd have missed my match) and gladys... haha, u guys kept cheering and wishing me luck etc... :) wow, i sound like i've won so medal rite? haha, nevermind, pple who stick by u when u lose are worth thanking even more... :p

wow... so shagged... anyway, sadness, lost so many phone numbers... need them back man! darn... using my dad's 6610 he just bought till my 6230 is out sometime this quarter... this 6610... how does anyone use it? i just can stand it. crappy buttons, ugly design, such a far cry from my lovely 6100... :(

also, am glad to have saved a total of $52 this week even though i reached home past 8 4 times this week in sch. yay! so now, plus so savings, i should be able to get the 2 of u some present after i save more next week. but, i'll also eat more next week, shalln't starve anymore... :p

oh yes mama, zp n i stuffed some ice cubes down papa nick's ass the other day... melted in his underwear... are u turned on? ;)